I prayed and thought on the Lord all day and said to myself, "If I rise tomorrow my destiny would be ordained, and I would have superior strength to accomplish it, or if I die I never was a disciple of Blessedness and servant of God but be it known I died in Lord Jesus name."

About night I laid on the floor constantly calling on the name of Lord Jesus. I laid so long till my bones began to ache. I arose from the floor, and called the she woman, the sister of the church who held my heart. But the people with whom she stayed denied her conversation. So I told her to call me back. I returned to the floor, and began to say strengthen me or let me die. But be it known, tempted I not the Lord our God in my heart.

I sought death upon myself but I knew the devil must not get the victory. Because I was still in battle with him, and I by Blessedness, by Lord Jesus, even I would win. I told myself that if the Lord gives me the strength I am seeking I would never turn back neither in this world or the world to come.

I began to speak the word to your spirit to make way for me to get to the Lord. And said, "Blessedness is upon his knees praying for me and I felt your spirit and believed in your prayer with superior strength and faith."

Then I asked the Lord, " Give me vision, and dreams."

All of a sudden there came a being of light and stood in front of me. It glowed with a unspeakable glow. It had dark, yet light eyes that made me fear. The darkness glowed as fire. It had a white body with no void or form, yet with form, which glowed above all light. The light it gave off had no beam. It had a dark image upon its form, the Image of the Cross!!! There was a greenish-white light that surrounded its entire body. And he stood there looking upon me, renewing me and lifting me up.

I wanted to cry out to it but I could not speak. It spoke only in the spirit to me for it speaketh aloud through you came a voice saying in meditation. I was afraid to look upon, but he stood there staring through those unspeakable eyes.

When I realized from whence he came and who he was, there came a light through the roof and he went up within that light. And I knew I had seen a mystery from the Kingdom of God!!! And I rejoiced and my spirit leaped. And I said if I rise tomorrow I am going to fulfill my blessed destiny.

And my phone rang and it was the she woman and I led her into meditation through Blessedness in Lord Jesus name and she and I spoke in tongues as the spirit of God gave us utterance. She was filled with the gift of the Holy Ghost.

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